Diálogo II

- Não tá fácil pra ninguém.
- Nunca foi.

(te evitando para me encontrar)

Não descer do bloco
para não te cumprimentar.
Subir pelas escadas
pois você está no elevador.
Sair pela garagem
para não te ver no térreo.
Não levar o cachorro pra passear
porque seu vizinho
também levou.
Ficar no apartamento
para não te encontrar
na padaria.

Nicolas Behk

O fio que me liga

Às voltas com interruptores,

tomadas abertas 

e fios desencapados, 

na esperança de que, 

em algum lapso de atenção,
eu receba um choque tão forte 

que me faça ver o mundo 

de ponta-cabeça.

É como li ontem, ou dia desses,

"A vida é um fio desencapado caído na rua em noite de chuva".

Kate Bush and her father

Hoje acordei

hoje acordei para ser feliz,
mas tudo o que tinha foram pedaços de uma felicidade
que já se foi.

I hate them all

I'm tired of everyone I know
Of everyone I see
on the street
and on TV, yeah

On the other side
On the other side
Nobody's waiting for me
On the other side

I hate them all
I hate them all
I hate myself for hating them

So I'll drink some more
I love them all
I'll drink even more
I'll hate them even more than I did before

On the Other Side
The Strokes

Saudade

Redescobrir você mesmo

e reviver sua própria vida.

Voltar aos velhos e ordinários hábitos.

Que saudade de mim!

If I only could...

You don't want to hurt me, 

But see how deep the bullet lies.

O caminho

acho, agora, que o caminho 

tem de ser mais fácil.

mais simples.

e que a poeira 

- dessa estrada -

nunca cesse.

porque, bem, acho que assim 

é a vida.

Cotidianamente

Um dia de cada vez.

Como os drogados, alcoólatras, maníacos.

Um dia de cada vez. 

Plano cartesiano da tolerância

Somando duas funções, o resultado está no quadrante.

The Part of You, You Don't Own

Para Sergio Marino, meu último adeus.

You don't know. But, I've been stealing. 

I've saved a smile of yours. 

A frown from behind that desk. 

Your face, your eyes, that scar. 

The tilt of your head, from yesterday, at 15 degrees. 

That mole on your neck. 

The smell of your hair, and the wind that blew through it. 

The vibrations of your voice. 

A tear, and the light that shone off it. 

Your walk, that walk. 

Your words, every word. 

Your laugh, your gasp. 

The way you sound when you're out of breath. 

A little song you'd hummed just the other day. 

That clumsy skip you made on your way. 

A weird noise. A feisty reply. 

A really funny, awkward goodbye. 

A silly "huh?", a helpless "why?". 

A stubborn "No", a silent cry. 

A look of anger on your face. 

A look of sorrow, of peace... 

A look of turbulence, a look of hope. 

And a naked look of love. 

I've taken a million snapshots of you in my head. 

I've recorded your every word, heartbeat and footstep. 

I have exhausted my memory space with you. 

And I've stolen every second I could. 

And saved you, in a place safe even from time. 

And in this moment, this ache. It's mine. 

Mine to cherish. Mine to keep. 

Mine to live with. 

There's a part of you, you do not own. 

And this part of you... is mine.

Fonte

Dogma 95 aplicado à vida.

Something Happened

Something happened to us.

A broken glass.

Our last tear.

Something happened to us.

As modern novels say,

the young boy is afraid of living.

The Change

"Change happens when the pain of holding on becomes greater than the fear of letting go."

Pierrot le fou

Qu'est-ce que je peux faire?

Je sais pas quoi faire.

Qu'est-ce que je peux faire?

Je sais pas quoi faire.

Qu'est-ce que je peux faire?

Je sais pas quoi faire.

For me

come to me

and tell me you're all

alright.

You are your body

That awkward moment when you realise you're a weirdo and can feel sad and happy at the same time. 

suspirando

e aquele coração 

que antes gritava por você

hoje não quer mais nada

além de silêncio.

You Can Forgive Yourself

You’re not okay 

nor cool 

or even letting things go. 

So, you can forgive yourself 

because these days have been awful for you. 

(Specially for you 

Who cares so much.)

Trocando em miúdos

eu bato o portão sem fazer alarde

eu levo a carteira de identidade

uma saideira, muita saudade

e a leve impressão de que já vou tarde

fair enough but exhaustive

A Perfect World

In my imaginary perfect world

I do not care about you.

At all.

nenhum lugar

não há lugar para viver que não na expectativa

RIDER

Fonte

The Key to the Inglorious Happiness

you

kiss me with love

and then

kill me with love.

O'Children

I'm totally in love with this one. Who knows what it means to me now...

Hey little train! We are all jumping on 

The train that goes to the Kingdom 

We're happy, Ma, we're having fun 

And the train ain't even left the station

For everyone wants a Mr. Darcy

my heart comes undone

while you are away

my heart comes undone

slowly unravel

in a ball of yarn

Esperar pelo melhor. Ao menos dessa vez.

Vê?

Updating quickly

"I've found that the saddest people are also the funniest, and only those who understand complexity can communicate simpicity."

A tal da palhaçada...

Odeio circo.

Aliás, odeio tudo que me encanta e depois some. 

Diálogo I

- e como se sente hoje?
- não sei se sinto. acho que não quero pensar na possibilidade de, ainda, sentir algo.
- como assim?
- nada. eu só me cansei de sentir.
- mas isso é impossível.
- não, não é. e sabe por quê? porque a gente sempre acha que sente demais. e o fim é sempre trágico. eu quero evitar isso. quanto menor a escalada, menor o tombo.
- não acredito que você possa estar sendo sincero.
- não estou. mas sentir é, de fato, e você há de convir, exaustivo demais para uma cabeça em formação.
- eu concordo, e isso é o belo da vida. poder renovar seus sentimentos.
- duvido que você acredite no que acabou de dizer.
- talvez eu não acredite.
- vamos ambos assumir para nós quão doloroso é sentir e como a vida seria melhor sem sentimentos.

os dois se olharam, preferindo acreditar na mentira que diziam.

ce qu'ils recherchent

leur personnalité. individuel.

ils, les chats.

da Fragilidade dos Relacionamentos

Why is everyone asking about "what it means"? We will never know what it "actually" means, that is if it's supposed to mean anything at all. We've become mad, thinking that everything must have meaning. Once an artwork is put out to the public, it belongs to the artworld (and leaves the artist), urging us to decipher and interpret what it "might" mean. Enjoy this video for its beautiful aesthetics and its excellent music. Get lost in the work, forget about meaning and interpret for yourself. [comentário retirado do Youtube]

apropriado para o momento

"Você busca o relacionamento na expectativa de mitigar a insegurança que infestou sua solidão; mas o tratamento só fez expandir os sintomas, e agora você talvez se sinta mais inseguro do que antes."

the weight of my words

eu tenho ouvido muito essa música nos últimos dias. descobri por acaso no meio do meu ipod e me apaixonei pela banda.

There are very many things
I would like to say to you
but I've lost my way
and I've lost my words

sometimes i need to stop thinking

Às vezes preciso parar de pensar.

what a rainy day

Hoje, 20 de junho.

Esses últimos dias tenho vivido como se fosse num filme. Ou pelo menos sentido como.
Clima chuvoso, frio, árvores molhadas, os sapatos sujos de lama. Sujos de alma.
A sensação doente que não passa, em momento algum, e que não fica, seja quando for.
Esta dubitável oscilação entre o estar e não estar.

Eu só precisava disso, falar. Se não te tenho mais, et je m'excuse d'être ainsi répétitif, tentarei ter a mim.

I never wrote this for you...

but I miss you a lot.

The non-happy poem

I'm not happy, I ought to affirme.

I wouldn't say I'm unhappy, for the weight of this affirmation is too stately and I don't want to be responsable for that.

I'm not happy, I'd say.

An unhappy person is that who already gave up on happiness, or is near to do this. 

The non-happy person lives in their own imature hope.

One is the loneliest number so am I

One is the loneliest number

that you'll ever do

Two can be as bad as one

it's the loneliest number

since the number one

"No" is the saddest experience

you'll ever know

Yes, it's the saddest experience

you'll ever know

Because one is the loneliest number

that you'll ever do

One is the loneliest number

that you'll ever know

It's just no good anymore

since you went away

Now I spend my time

just making rhymes of yesterday (one by one by one)

Because one is the loneliest number

that you'll ever do

One is the loneliest number

that you'll ever know

One is the loneliest number

One is the loneliest number

One is the loneliest number

That you'll ever do

One is the lonelist number

much, much worse than two

One is a number divided by two

(Life isn't easy when two are divided

And one has decided to bring down the curtain

And one thing's for certain

There's nothing to keep them together)

A Heart Tattoo

How to control you anger

1. Learn to recognize when you are feeling stressed – this will help you to reduce your stress before it is expressed as destructive anger.

2. Work on developing your empathy – trying to see things from another’s perspective often helps to dissipate intense emotions.

3. Decide to respond instead of react – although the way we react often feels automatic, we can actually choose how we’ll think, feel and respond. This is empowering and the road to freedom.

4. Change your self talk – listen to the conversation in your head and learn to modify extreme, unbalanced thoughts. Look for exceptions to “you always” thinking, and reframe “you must” or “you should” demands.

5. Learn to be assertive – honest and open communication about your wishes, needs and preferences can stop resentment building – so it doesn’t turn to anger.

6. Adjust your expectation – often anger is triggered by a difference between our expectations and what we actually get. Thus, sometimes it is better to adjust our expectations so they’re more in line with reality.

7. Forgiving doesn’t also mean forgetting – although it is healthy to sometimes let things go, that doesn’t mean we weren’t hurt, upset or offended. The difference is we’re choosing to move on with our lives, and we’re not being controlled by external eventes.

8. Remove yourself from the situation – retreating temporarily or “talking time-out” provides some space to think about the “best thing to do”. Thus, you maintain control of yourself and circumstances.

Eu prefiro ser Clark Kent

Enquanto o Homem-Aranha se utiliza de fantasia para ser um super herói, o Super-Homem se fantasia de Clark Kent para ser um humano. É uma bela metáfora para mostrar como alguns de nós têm uma espécie de super-herói com superpoderes dentro de si. E outros não.

The Little Mermaid Real Story

The prince and princess marry, and the Little Mermaid's heart breaks. 

She thinks of all that she has given up and of all the pain she has suffered. 

She despairs, thinking of the death that awaits her, but before dawn, her sisters bring her a knife that the Sea Witch has given them in exchange for their long hair. 

If the Little Mermaid slays the prince with the knife and lets his blood drip on her feet, she will become a mermaid again, all her suffering will end and she will live out her full life.

The Little Mermaid cannot bring herself to kill the sleeping prince lying with his bride and as dawn breaks she throws herself into the sea. 

Her body dissolves into foam, but instead of ceasing to exist, she feels the warmth of the sun; she has turned into a spirit, a daughter of the air. 

The other daughters of the air tell her she has become like them because she strove with all her heart to gain an eternal soul. 

She will earn her own soul by doing good deeds for 300 years; for each good child she found, she would obtain one year less while, for each bad child, she would cry, and each tear would mean one month more and she will eventually rise up into the kingdom of God.

Every time I listen to this song I want to get tattooed with these words

And how can you mend a broken heart?
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?

"I feel like shit"

o que fazer quando se sentir um lixo?

pensar em metáforas. falar dos sentimentos nunca é fácil.

mudar de ares. e adiar a vida.

olhar pela janela e só ver a cortina.